Selfawareness - The Two Things I Lack

Today, for some odd reason I just had a realization of the two things that I lack that's preventing me from getting to, achieving, and basically reaching my goals. So what are these two things? Consistency and Patience. Now, this can apply to everyone but today it finally clicked. I've finally realized what was keeping me from reaching my goals and getting me to where I want to be in life. So here are some of my goals and things to accomplish list.

1. Get back in shape (I've gained almost 20lbs in 4 years)
2. Improve my skin (I have crazy breakouts, acne scars, & sadly some wrinkles)
3. Save money (I've been spending way too much money on food, hence the weight gain)
4. Be educated (I'm currently studying for my PHR)
5. Be organized & clean (Trust me, I've taken over three rooms at my house, stuff is everywhere!)


Now I know it my list may sound very generic, I mean who the hell doesn't want to conquer all those things!

What's preventing me from getting there? CONSISTENCY AND PATIENCE!

1. Getting back in shape - so I know it, my bf knows it, even my friends know it. I've let myself go. Thankfully, the boy hasn't left me :) and actually kind of likes the jiggle haha. Alright, so I know I probably won't be a size 0 or a 1 EVER again like when I was in high school BUT I can probably go down a size and just tighten up a little bit here and there. So to encourage me to start working out again I joined the gym and figured since I'm paying for it I might as well go. I started off great, worked out 2-3 times a week for about 30-45 minutes and figured I'll continue to increase the intensity, time frame, and add more workout routines in the mix once I got the mojo started but NOPE! Worked out for about a 1month and never went back for 2months.

2. Improve my skin - My skin was never really an issue when I was younger but I realized that as I got older things just aren't the same anymore. More acne started to come up as the stress level went up. Which resulted in a lot of popping and acne scars. Definitely not a pretty look. Now, I'll admit it. My face isn't as bad as most but it definitely isn't as good as I'd like it to be. So I started to get facials to cleanse my face and get back on a more consistent routine instead of changing products week after week (now I have a zillion of products in my bathroom that needs to be finished). I have so many products that I had to throw some away because it expired and I've realized that it was such a waste of money. I've restricted myself from purchasing any new products until I finished what's in my bathroom. Back to facials, I was suppose to get a facial every month or so to really improve the skin and then it'll be every 3 months or so since my skin was so horrible. What ended up happening? I went once and didn't show up for another 2-3 months.

3. Save money - I wanted to start saving up money so in the future so I can live the life. I started saving money from every paycheck because I had a goal of how much I wanted to save by the end of the year. Worked out great for the first 3 months, then I just completely stopped saving and putting money away. Instead, I was spending more than usual. Not good.

4. Be educated - So one of my co-workers and I are studying for our PHR certification which we are planning on taking at the end of December. We purchased the book and everything and started studying the 1st month and had our flashcards and etc. Read up to chapter 3 and never looked at the book ever again.

5. Be organized and clean - As mentioned earlier, I've taken over three rooms at my house (my room, living room, and computer room). My stuff is literally everywhere, and it is literally taking over, nothing near hoarders but its still bad enough. I started cleaning everything and organizing everything for about 2 weeks, and by the following week, stuff was everywhere again.


Yup, epic fail on everything. So what does all those story all have in common? I lack consistency and patience!


After today, I'm going to tackle every single one of those things step by step. I believe that a little a day will go a long way. I feel that I am focused, I am determined, and I am motivated to totally own in all 5 of those categories!


I'm also going to try to blog more often, lets try once a week :) maybe every Wednesday or so.


Wish me luck!